The Obscure

hey everybody. I am so sick of me. I make me sick, I really do, the way I think, the way I act, I would hate me so much if I were somebody else, I would hate me with a passion. which can only mean pretty much anyone like me, must hate me. which means opposites truly do attract, because if someone was like me, they would hate my flaws. as I in turn would them. I don't know, I don't really know when to do things, if you understand that, I'll yell when we should be quiet, accidentally, I'll make terrible jokes to people and everything. my social skills surely lack, but the one thing I hate more than anything in the world, is people who act EXACTLY LIKE ME! I see them all the time, and the thoughts that go through my head are, "God they are so annoying." and stuff, hypocrisy, in the extreme, I guess I'll never get out of it either, the only thing that changed in me when I grew up, beyond physically of course, was my jokes and watnot were slightly better worded. otherwise I am exactly like I was when I was 8. that's both comforting and depressing. maybe I should just beat the crap out of someone, and then not talk to anyone ever again. people would leave me alone. oh well, I'm depressing myself with this, I'm gonna try and talk about something else, I have about half an hour to kill here. hm...what to do...how about.....no....ok! I was talking to some kids in my history class, a kid said he didn't believe in god, and I said that I thought it made more sense than things just happening, and he asked how god came about, and I have answers for that, but he went on, he said that god has just been an excuse for people to answer things they couldn't understand over the years, everytime something seemed unexplainable, they said it was god. well, I looked at him for about two seconds, and then said, "so is science" and he got confused, so I explained how I saw it. a great deal of all science is theory. we theorize on atoms and such, but we don't know, we haven't seen them, we say that there is scientific laws, such as gravity, that makes sense on earth, but for something to be all encompassing it has to be tested in all areas, and we have explored and infintismal amount of our universe. science is a religion now, there is no getting around that, it's still based on faith, everything we have, is based on faith, I don't care what you say, I don't care what you believe, nothing we know is definate. let me try and put things in perspective here. No one is openminded, I don't care what you say, no one is. they all have some narrow areas, evolutionist put down creationism, creationists put down evolution, but when it all comes down to it, it's friggin holy wars, because everyone just believes what they think is right, and will fight for it to their deaths just to not give in. I say, we should all just not care, believe what we want to, and live in peace, but what do I know, I'm just a stupid christian.