The Obscure

Hey everyone, I am having one hella-bad day. I woke up in a terrible mood, but not even a normal terrible mood where I am clever and sarcastic (or so I like to think) Just, bad, all around. Because I didn't get to sleep till very late lastnight, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna be grounded when I get home, because that's how my mom works, she let's me go all day without a hint of anger or something, and then I get home only to discover I can't do anything! And after that it's just been bad thing after bad thing, normally I have a little leeway inbetween in which I can rest or something, but his was ajust a constant onslaughtof terrible times had by all, "all" being me. But, on the plus side, I borrowed three bucks from my good friend aaron, and I'm going to buy a Mochacino on the way home, also lauren said she was gonna try to come over, although there turned out to be no youth group tonight, so that could make the day turn rapidly good. nonetheless, as usual, with any depression or negative emotion I feel, comes a burst of intense philosphical thought, most of it this time based on a thing I read about my "personality type" yesterday. It explained why I feel the way I do about alot of things. So I woke up all pissed, was pissed all day, and throughout the day, I just had to keep submitting and submitting to all authority and such because if I didn't there would be consequences, I wanted to just do whatever. I can't help but think that this is is bulljunk and I shouldn't have to put up with it, I shouldn't be forced under the yoke that or society decided to adopt if I choose not to, it sucks! Also I had t ahouthg (about MCAS) and this one was based more on the idea I was thinking of yesterday, that the reason the government and such has been withholding scientific advancements and stuff from us is, simply put, control. think about it, the government possesses weapons and defense mechanisms we can't yet imagine, and they won't tell us about them, why? Because they want that edge, if a revolution sparks, they want to be able to extinguish it and wipe it out before it catches flame. They want to be able to have our system make the switch to a police state in seconds! Man, if we were to rebel, or get out of wack in anyway, they would just arm the cops more, and the president would become a tyrant. Maybe not the president, but some ruler of some sort. He, or parasynthetically she depending on how it works, could just take control in a swift coup de grace of sorts and beat the masses down, and MCAS, these standardized tests, aren't to better our learning environments, they are just another step in identifying threats and regulating intelligence! Standardized testing is just another step toward becoming a tyrranical police state, warn the masses!! haha, yeah, welp that's all I got, see yall later.