The Obscure

hey hey, guess what? I am upset. Want to ask me why? well, no need! I will tell you, This school year so far is a total waste. I hate it, I hate school. It's not that I CAN'T do it, it's just the way that they try and make us is impossible to deal with. If they just gave me a list of what I needed to learn, and five books, I could learn a supposed "year's" worth of stuff in a month. I'm not saying I'm smarter than anyone, it's just the way I do things. but they make me waste so much time and I get so bored and so lazy, I just can't function that way. Hopefully it'll be easier next year with dave at my school. The only way I can see it all working is as follows, 1. I pass biology, somehow, this year 2. I take geometry for summer school, if I didn't lose credit 3. I take english 10 as well as english 11 next year, and pass them flawlessly. Then I pass 12th grade in a normal way, but have to exceed, alot. and hopefully, with some good SAT scores, and some essays and such, I can get into a decent college, barring the almighty awesome power of the scholarship I COULD get from doing well on the mcas. Who knows? it's just depressing to realize that I am left so little option, I could choose to abandon it altogether, but it wouldn't be just me I'd be shortselling, My parents want me to go to college, they don't want me to go through the hardships they have, I've seen how this sort of thing plays in other peoples lives and I think, if I do it, I can pull it off! but I'm sure they thought the same thing. So I have to give in, once again, I have to again have my passion for living in it's rawest form, beaten down, and go with authority. Damn.