The Obscure

Hello, um, I don't got alot to say, I can't really tell what my tummy is saying right now. My tummy really dictates my life. my physical tummy is hungry, but I don't want to eat. It's one of those times when you need some sort of pain to remind you that you're alive. so I'm not eating, I'm going to let my stomach eat itself, and tomorrow morning I will wake up refreshed and new. if you ever feel like killing a few hours, watch a sunbeam. Seeing a sunbeam move is a new addon to my list of joys. I have about 10 things in which I take an almost divine joy, that is now one of them. I'm going to write out my list now, ten was approxiamate..

Seeing a sunbeam moving
Drying off with a warm towel
Falling asleep holding lauren
Laughing with my friends, preferably late at night, fueled by caffiene
Early morning coffee, by myself with a book and Coltrane in the background
Drawing something I love, and hiding it
Writing my feelings, and then rereading them almost obsessively
Physically beating someone up (yeah I know, I never really do it)
Making my mom laugh
Beating the hardest boss in a game, on your third try. THIRD!
and of course, last but not least, watching a movie or reading a book so good that you are pacing your room, PACING YOUR ROOM, with excitement about it. If you haven't done that, you haven't lived dammit.

That is my list, I hope you enjoyed it. Remembering my joys has brought me joy, and I no longer need to starve myself tonight. I'm going to make some hotdogs, booyah grandma, give me some love, sugah!